• burning

    by  • March 3, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Depression • 0 Comments

    starving myself again tonight…it feels so good to have my body beg me for something…but i’m in control, i am the master. the only thing i am in control of. i have control and i can let myself suffer at the same time. it burns. tonight more than ever i feel like i have nothing keeping me here. i want to leave just to save him, i want to leave this life behind and go home to Him. tonight more than ever I am fighting to stay in bed and not follow through. I would do anything to save him. I don’t want to be here. I have noone, so i type pathetic letters to nowhere. I am alone, very alone. I starve myself. i starve myself and it burns. I love how it burns. I love you more, but we cannot be. I love how it burns

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