Well, I’m not very good at things like this. I’ve never been a very emotional girl.. I liked emptiness cause I somehow how knew without realizing, I loved the safety of that. Lots of guys told me they loved me, great guys, but I ran. They were never enough. I dated a few but quickly ended it. Admittedly, I’ve cheated due to my lack of emotions and carelessness for any of them because I simply didn’t care! You come along, one of my “affair-ees” and I planned to just say goodbye after a while. I broke up with your best friend and our, whatever it is, continues almost two months later. I know how awful this could sound to and outside perspective, I’m sure it is terrible- I don’t claim to be a good person. Finally though, I’m terrified to lose him- I feel something. It’s so new and wonderful! I don’t feel empty I feel so happy and complete. He is the same way as I am and I’m pretty sure even he feels the same as I do! I just, I’m so scared.. Everyday we discuss how much we like each other I come closer to spewing it out.. I’ve never had a desire to express this. I want to tell him I love him. I love him. I’m in love with him.