No matter what I’ve said or continue to say, please know that I truly care for you. I want you to have nothing but ultimate happiness and success. I told you if I could have it my way we would be best friends and a break-up would not be the end of the world. I’m sorry that I just don’t feel like being in this relationship anymore. I know the worst line to say is it’s me not you, but in this instance I truly mean it. I don’t think that being in any relationship is what’s best for ME. I told you in July I didn’t want to be in a relationship and that I wasn’t ready. Finally after months of bombardment I asked you out, even though I knew I wasn’t ready. Yes you and I have had some amazing experiences together. I thank you for showing me a lot of things I had never seen and done before, but I feel we were doomed from the start. At least we were in my eyes. I need to be single. Here I am 21 years old and all I have done since I was 16 is be in serious relationships. I want to go out and meet new people and flirt again without trying to date someone. I just want to be free, but that doesn’t mean I don’t want you along for the ride. Like I said I want you to be my best friend and be the first person I tell all my amazing things to. I just don’t want to do that as you boyfriend. I know that right now we are still together and that you want to try and make this work. I’m ok with that, but I told you I would reach that point where I don’t want to try or put in any effort and baby I’m there. I hope that whatever happens between us we remain at the very least friends. I mean it when I say I care and love you, just not like that anymore. I wish I knew exactly what to say to you, but I don’t. Maybe you and I will work out and this is just a rough patch and if not, I’m sorry for all the promises I made. You deserve to be with an amazing guy, someone who will always have that passion like I once did. I know you want me to be your forever, but I’m your first real boyfriend and forever is such a long time for us especially. I want you in my life, just not as your boyfriend. I wish I could send this to you, but I never will.