I know I hurt you, I know I broke your heart, I miss you so so much. I don’t know what to do with myself whenever I see you at work. It’s hard, it’s really hard to go days without talking like we are now. You want nothing to do with me, and I want everything to do with you. You were perfect to me, did everything for me, and I never gave anything back.
I was confused, I didn’t know what to do. If I was strong enough, I’d be with you. I’m not though, and I know I made the wrong choice. You have every right to hate me, it’s okay, but I still have feelings for you, regardless. I’ll always keep that penguin you gave me in my car and your specialist patch in there too. It reminds me of you, they are all I have left of you now.
I think about you all the time, all night, I think about you. I wonder if you do the same.
You told me, before you left, that there was big things coming my way in the next few months, I just have to trust you and not miss them.
I’ll try for you. But I can’t garentee anything.
I’ll sit there, and pretend, try my hardest, to seem happy for you.
But I’m not.
I want you back in my life.
Quite honestly, if I could, I’d go back and change everything.
I’m so sorry love.
I really am.