• *****You are missed*****

    by  • March 1, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 2 Comments

    This is not just another love letter. This is not just another story. This is it! Nothing in my life is as big as this. This is the most important chapter in my life and I am not going to feel guilty about giving it the importance that it deserves.

    We loved each other. We lost each other. I didn’t think our love was special enough to stand the tides of time. But when I spoke with you after so many years, everything just came rushing back to me. I don’t think the love, passion, good will or friendship that we shared, ever left me.

    For the first time in a long time, I have seen you so helpless. Even though it looks like you are still figuring things out, you have always been assertive about your actions. Today was not like any other day. Today it looked like you needed support. And it breaks my heart to know that I am the reason for this.

    I just want to take a minute, step back and see how far we have come along. I know our world is really small and we are the only two people in it. Even then, this relationship between us feels like the world to me. I am so amazed at you. Never in my life had I thought I would find you when all I ever did was, wait for you. Yes, you are the one. You are it! You will always be the one!

    Sometimes I feel so selfish that I want to keep you all to myself. If it were up to me I would just spend every minute of my waking hour only with you, thinking about you, for the rest of my life.

    You are the biggest and greatest truth of my life. You are and I just cannot deny it. I am not sure, if I even deserve so much love. I am completely head over heels right now. I have stopped asking why a long time ago. Coz, reason doesn’t matter anymore. All of this feels way beyond any rhyme or reason. Love is such a powerful feeling. I now realize that. Thank you for showing me my own potential to love someone with so much passion.

    Nothing that I am saying is exaggerated or unwanted. How can I move on from something so amazing and magnetic? How can I move on from you? Is this even possible? Is this even something a person can just do? It felt like I was running away from my own happiness when I lost you. If this isn’t real then what is. If this isn’t perfect then what is? Moving is not even an option. I think the pain of carrying you in my heart will give me much more happiness than moving on. How can the world expect me to let go of something that I feel so strongly about. I know it’s not fair for me to ask you to let go either. And I can only imagine your difficulty in it.

    The truth is you have been so magical and charming that my current life feels very ordinary to me. You showed me how to love and you will always be my first love. I will cherish this magic forever.

    2 Responses to *****You are missed*****

    1. L
      March 1, 2012 at 7:48 pm

      Reading this post hurt, because this is exactly how I feel. I cannot let go either,and the pain of trying to is worse than just leaving the love in my heart.

    2. Andrea Jo
      March 4, 2012 at 1:59 pm

      I have been trying to find a way to get up the courage to let my ex know I still love him & our passion was the most amazing I ever experienced. Our love wasn’t just an everday love. I am 35 & he is 24 together for 9mths. We let others tear us apart to were I moved 13hrs away from him. Reading your amazing words to the one you love has given me the strength to let him know I am not going to walk away with out a fight for us.

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