You’ve been there my entire life. Years on years on years of friendship.
They tell you that college changes things. That you’ll find new friends in college…better friends who make you feel whole and alive and happy.
You used to.
I watch old videos. Look at old pictures. Read old letters. And..it’s just like you’re gone.
Don’t get me wrong. I’m so happy here. I couldn’t imagine a better place..better friends…better experiences. And I’m by no means lonely.
But I know that everything has slipped. You. and now slowly.. her. The beautiful trio.
And I’m sure in a few insignificant ways I’ve changed. But not like you. I don’t recognize you anymore. And I keep trying so hard to remember you as the little girl who used to make stupid videos with me. Who used to get mad at me when I wouldn’t call her back because I was too busy having a boyfriend. I remember looking back after I ended things with him..thinking..wow. she cared so much. what a true friend.
And it’s just so incredibly sad now. Because true is so far away from the words I would use to describe you. I have many friends now who have proved to be much truer than you.
I just don’t get it. I don’t get how you can change so much. How it’s been half a semester and you haven’t bothered with one text or call. Nothing. Weeks and weeks and weeks go by….silence. And we both know you won’t visit me this year. Because you’re too busy. And you can’t find one weekend. One night even.
I’ll come back when you call me and whatever..
But..for now it’s time to say goodbye.