The summer before I went into college my boyfriend at the time dumped over text. He had told me that he loved and that he wanted to lose his virginity to me. He told me many sweet and beautiful things. I felt loved and I was addicted to that feeling. He hurt me when he dumped me in a text. He hurt me when he called me a slut and that my mother is probably ashamed of me. Which is funny is because in my life I had only kissed one other guy besides him and we never even had sex because I wasn’t ready. He hurt me. This is letter is not for him.
I went into college and wanted to just get rid of it. I didn’t want the pressure of having my virginity. It was like a big weight on me. I wanted to give it to someone that I knew could never hurt me. Then I met you. And I liked you and I told you. And you never said it back. A month and a half later I lost my virginity to you. 4 months after I met you never pay any attention to me anymore. I just want you to know that even though I’m hurt and I still cry a lot. I don’t hate you. Even though I still like you and you probably never even think of me. I can never hate you. I don’t regret it. And I love you and will always remember you.