I have three letters, to three different boys.
To the ex- you hurt me so badly. I let you in, I trusted you with everything when it was so hard to trust. I wish I could have closure and that you would give me a reason other than it was what you wanted/needed. We fought twice, TWICE. Just because we fought, didn’t mean that we weren’t right for each other, but I guess that’s how you saw it.
To the current- I can’t decide with you. I want to trust, I am really trying, but I don’t want to be in a relationship right now, with anyone! I like you enough to stay in a relationship, but college is a time to meet people. Maybe senior year I will settle down, but right now I just want to get to know as many people as I can. I know you don’t understand this, but I know that if we continue dating we will fall in love and the hurt will only be worse for both of us. I wish you hadn’t given me a second chance. I wish we could have just been friends.
To S- I really like you, but led me on all the way back in September. We talked about everything, my past, your past, what we thought, how we felt. That night was amazing laying under the stars, looking for a shooting stars. You failed to mention the fact you had a girlfriend for 3 years! three whole years! Yes, now you are broken up, but how do I know you won’t do the same if I were to ever like you again/date you.
To those who are reading this, I am hurt, lost, confused, like many of you. But I am growing and getting stronger. There are days like today when I feel down in the dumps, lost in thoughts, but there are days where I feel like I am on top of the world. Those days help me survive; find the little moments and hold on to them, because you never know when you are going to need them!