I don’t place a high emphasis on love and romance, at least not in the way most people do. You know that but I don’t think you understand what I mean. Sometimes, I feel you think I’m bitter or in some form of denial. It’s not that I don’t want love, I do; but most so called “romances” are cliche and ultimately mean nothing. So, I decided not to look for love and that by being myself and doing what I love to do, I would eventually find someone. And if I didn’t, that would be okay. I never want to be with someone for the sake of being in a relationship. That’s meaningless. I want to be with someone because I care about them and enjoy being with them.
I took my advice and it led me to you. I wish that was less complicated. It took me a long time to admit that I even liked you. And I know you like me too. Yet, this has become a classic case of what I’ve always known. Just because two people like each other doesn’t mean it will work out. I’d like to say it would and that we should take a chance but that’s against my better judgment and it’s not fear talking, it’s reason. You’re my best friend’s roommate and you are one of his best friends. I work with a lot of your friends and we have a lot of friends in common.
It would be awkward. Say we started dating. That could work for a while and if we both worked at it, it might not be awkward given the circumstances. But eventually, we’d probably break up and that’s the biggest problem. You, my best friend, and I are very close and that would hurt those friendships in some way. I want to say we could be amicable and it could work out. It’s possible and I think I could do that but there’s no guarantee and I’m not sure you could. So the way I see it is that we could try to be in a relationship but it won’t last and will probably only cause drama in the end or we could just be friends and avoid the drama.
I think the latter is better for everyone. That way no friend has to choose sides or get involved in any drama. There’s no awkwardness. No ruined friendships. And at least we’re still friends.