Why did I have sex with him?! It wasn’t safe, I don’t want it…and now he thinks I want him more than I do. Feeling like I made a huge mistake that will prevent me from you. I hope not. You aren’t as forward as him, as sweet, or as handsome..but I’m so excited by you and what is going on in your mind. I wish you would just tell me how you feel one way or another..so I can be with him without feeling like I’ve messed up my chances of something pretty great with you…or not :).