I love you with a depth unlike anything I’ve ever known before.
I love you with open eyes and no false believe, I know you inside out.
I love you as in you.
BUT I am greedy and selfish. A constant battle not to be, that
I am unable to win – no matter how hard I try.
I want you, no – I need you, in my life to ever find true happiness!
I want you every day, every night and warm your heart in between.
I want to be your comfort, your shoulder in need.
I want to be the one you will always be safe with.
I want to be a big reason for your happiness.
I want to be the one wrapping my arms around you to stay, when I was the one to make you angry.
I want you to know, not think, I want you to know and never doubt my love.
I want you to see my truth of how wonderful and special of a man you are.
I want to be the one that finally breaks through your walls of self doubt and fear.
I want to be your home, this place of safe, peace and solitude.
I want to be your fun and entertainment.
I want to be the one to show you that one woman can be everything you want.
I want to be the one that drives you up the wall just to realize that in a way, you love every moment of that too.
I want to be the one to make you see that loyalty is not just an empty word.
I want to prove to you that unconditional trust will never be broken.
I want to be the one to show you that intensity of love doesn’t fade by time, nor routine and will be fresh like the very first day until the end.
I want to be the one to word banter with you and let you win because you are the man.
I want to be the one to satisfy your fantasies.
I want to be the one that you never ever feel alone or lonely again.
I want to be the one you can’t get enough of.
I want to be the one you want to teach what you know.
I want to be the one you want to learn from.
I want to be the one you will never want to let go of.
I want to be the one you want to spend the rest of your days with.
I want to be the one for you to make this dream we’re living come true.
I want to be the one you really want faults and all.
I want you to make me believe again and I want to live it, breathe it, touch it.
I want it all because I give it all in return.
I want to jump and want you to take my hand and make me.
Nothing less will ever do. I know what I want and I know what I don’t want.
I will never again settle for ‘content’ when it comes to love.
I will rather die alone and still feel less alone, then I would with anybody less then you.
I know you think that you can’t give me all of this.
What you don’t realize is, that ONLY you can! No, I have not a speck of doubt, I KNOW you can.
You are more then I ever thought exists and you, you don’t even realize your worth (and oh god have I tried the best with options you’ve given me).
Your ONLY fault I can not live with (and will always stand in the way) is, that you are not mine, while I am already yours.
This is the root to any and all, mis-assumptions/understandings, strange behaviors, arguments and hurts, we have ever went through (and still going through)!
How did I even get here? Am I asking too much?
Is it impossible for those wants, wishes, feelings to be mutual?
Is it? Does my idea of love exist? Or not? It does!
After 44 years have I become a naive idiot or do I just finally know myself enough to really know my wants, needs, emotions?
I know what you’d probably say, but I know what I know and even you won’t take that from me.
I simply KNOW how I feel and what I want, and would go past my fear and pain to get there.
Be honest, do you?
Maybe it’s me who is just not good enough and want to much…
but I promise I will never change!