My life has been changing so much lately and all I can think of is that I want you around so I can call you crying when I’m homesick. You were a key post in my support system that I never properly replaced. Now I’m barely staying up and probably leaning too much on others.
Damnit… I wish you were here to hold me like you used to. I miss the feel of your strong arms around me, I miss how when you held me my head would tuck naturally into the crook of your neck.
I used to believe that if everything in my life were to change then at least you’d be there for me during the whole thing.
Everything is changed. You aren’t here.
I need to get used to that now.
Always thinking of you, xoxo