this is all so confusing
it’s like my life is shedding all the people that might be no good for me without my consent
my “best friend” might be out of the picture now because i finally stuck up for myself and she didn’t like what i had to say about how shitty she treats me
the guy i was feeling so strongly for is resistant to opening up about seemingly anything, i’m not sure why, and i find myself drifting away while he still tries to pull me closer even though he’s so closed up.
other friends are rarely heard from
it all seems to be a mess which i’ve got no control over
but, maybe its what needs to happen for the changes i want in my life to be able to surface?
thankfully i’ve got a wonderful family who will always be there for me at the drop of a hat through this and everything else i’m dealing with right now, good or bad
as crappy as i feel with everything else going on in my life, the luck that i feel from having my family is far more significant
i know that not everyone has that, which is a huge part of why i’ll never take them for granted.