Thinking too much

I hate this distance. I hate not knowing how you are doing or what you are thinking. Talking over email sucks big time. Everytime I check my inbox I’m looking for a note from you. And when I get one, I freak out because I’m afraid you’re going to say you’re done. I’m putting my trust and faith in God. I know He has you in His hands. His will is not for divorce, not for giving up. I’m willing to put in the work to make things work, I’m willing to be a better wife and mother. You are ALWAYS in my thoughts. During Spanish, through English, Math and especially New Testament. I know I’ll be ok regardless of what happens, but I want us to work. I want you. Forever and ever, amen.