Last night you said we should just be friends. You had only one good reason. Other than that, you said I deserve someone better; I deserve someone with a perfect past and no mistakes like me. You don’t know me well enough to know if I have made mistakes or not but you’ve made a decision for the both of us, affecting the future.
I unfortunately allowed myself to fall head over heels for you so now I’m feeling broken. It didn’t help that when I went to bed I dreamed of me and you, the way we were before you said the dreaded friends phrase.
I’ve been with others longer than I was with you and been told what you told me but it’s never felt like this. I don’t have the resilience with this failed relationship that I normally do. The thought of seeing you even in my dreams causes my stomach to churn in the most unpleasant manner.
On the bright side, you were right. I do deserve better. Not because you weren’t everything I wanted but because you couldn’t see how amazing you are. I deserve someone who knows it. I deserve someone who won’t make the decision for me on what is good enough.
So thanks for the best week and the worst night.