I’m not mad at you anymore. I understand you have to do what you feel is best for you. It just sucks because for the greater part of four years I’ve been trying to get through to you but I really can’t do it anymore. I know this isn’t the first time we’ve broken up but why was I always the only one making the effort? I can no longer fight so hard to give someone something they obviously have no interest in. We all have issues to deal with but with you I’m always on the receiving end of something I have no clue about. I still love you, I’m not going to deny that but you can’t see me for who I am and treat me with the love and respect I deserve. I wish I could say let’s be friends but I have not yet attained that level of maturity. I tried to be ‘cool’ like you said you were but it’s just not working for me. If I remain friends with you, you’re going to weasel your way in again until we end up right back where we started. It’s not fair to me and I can’t keep doing this to myself. I love you but I love me more. You could be such and asshole, you’re arrogant, you think people either want to be you or sleep with you. The thing is, I see how insecure you are. These things never made me love you any less. I loved both the good and bad in you. When all the parties and drinking and people are gone and you’re left with yourself, I hope you’re happy. Somehow we started on the same page but I feel like I’m ready for more and you’re still the same. You have not matured one bit. You disappointed me more times than I care to count and I realize that it doesn’t have to be like this. Love isn’t about one person trying to make things work and unwavering in their commitment while it doesn’t really matter to the other person. Obviously what I have to offer is no longer good enough for you. Go find what you’re looking for. I will get over you and I’m going to love again, just as hard. Someone out there is going to love me back and I will be happy. I honestly wish you the best in everything that you do. I’m sorry we can’t be friends, we had some good parts, but such is life. Just try to stop being so selfish and mean and give someone a chance. Open up for once.