I can still remember you. You and your crazy beautiful demeanor. It’s astounding how perfect you seemed for me. Everything between us was so easy, natural. It’s not often when that person comes along and everything seems to just fall into place. Our personalities just meshed so well together neither one of us even had to try. I miss you. Looking back I can’t believe how blind I was when it came to you. In every aspect, good and bad, I was completely blind. You did it. You cupped your weathered hands over my eyes and guided me. You made sure I had no idea what I was getting myself into. You were straight trouble. Broken, distant, confusing, hurtful, and guarded. I was drawn to you. Your past broke you down, but you confidently let me into your secret life. The distance you tried to create between us, I regrettably had double that laid out. Your mind games had rules. You loved playing with me because you knew you would always win. I am weak when it comes to you and I know the rules were always in your favor. Some of your actions were deceiving and disgusting, but I never would say anything because I didn’t want to lose you. I had an unforgiving wall I stacked high between us. The more I would build the more you would build and push away. I’m sorry for that. I’m upset I’m still here. Still stuck in this place with you. A fight between myself and our memories. You never made it easy for me to move on. It’s as if you held on to me till you found someone else, then cut your ties to me and watched me fall. I feel pathetic. The unfinished business is what keeps me still wrapped up. I’m not sure what I have to do to be able to move on from you. My heart continues to rebreak itself and I just want it to heal. I wanna feel ok again. I’m sorry and I love you.