• Why Didn’t You Wait?

    by  • February 20, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Those Gone Before Us • 1 Comment

    Dear Grandpa,

    I thought you loved me? My mom always sent you letters about me, sent the pictures that I drew for you. I thought you wanted to meet me? Neither side of the family could afford to fly home to Asia on a regular basis but when we got the news we made arrangements. We scraped up every spare dollar that we could to fly out there. I was only 8, how come you couldn’t hold on for me?

    I know you were sick, that’s why I was flying out to see you with my mom. I was on the plane when you finally let go. I was so excited to meet you, and even though I’m 24 now, I still wish that I could have seen you alive at least once in my life.

    I never got to ask you to tell me embarrassing stories about my mom. I never got to ask you about your life. I never got to ask if you were proud of me.

    Are you watching over me now? Do you approve of the life I have chosen for myself? I guess I’ll never know, but I’ll continue on hoping that you can see the woman I’ve become.

    I don’t care what anyone says, losing you hit me hard even though I never met you. Even though I don’t show it most of the time.

    I miss you a lot.

    Love always,

    Your granddaughter.

    One Response to Why Didn’t You Wait?

    1. Anna
      February 22, 2012 at 9:19 am

      I’m sorry you never got to meet your grandpa. But I am sure that he loved you, and continues to love you and watch over you. I was fortunate enough to meet my grandparents but we lived apart for several years so we wrote a lot of letters to each other. I didn’t realize that my letters were the highlights of their week and were shared with their students and co-teachers. I’m sure every letter you wrote was equally cherished. Know that youwere loved mightily and deeply.

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