I thought you loved me? My mom always sent you letters about me, sent the pictures that I drew for you. I thought you wanted to meet me? Neither side of the family could afford to fly home to Asia on a regular basis but when we got the news we made arrangements. We scraped up every spare dollar that we could to fly out there. I was only 8, how come you couldn’t hold on for me?
I know you were sick, that’s why I was flying out to see you with my mom. I was on the plane when you finally let go. I was so excited to meet you, and even though I’m 24 now, I still wish that I could have seen you alive at least once in my life.
I never got to ask you to tell me embarrassing stories about my mom. I never got to ask you about your life. I never got to ask if you were proud of me.
Are you watching over me now? Do you approve of the life I have chosen for myself? I guess I’ll never know, but I’ll continue on hoping that you can see the woman I’ve become.
I don’t care what anyone says, losing you hit me hard even though I never met you. Even though I don’t show it most of the time.
I miss you a lot.