It’s fine that you feel all the things you feel. I understand that you are writing it here to keep from actually contacting me. But after seven years of our writing back and forth…do you think I wouldn’t recognize a letter to me?
But if this is what you want, fine. Know this, though. It takes two to ruin a relationship. You are no more a victim than me.
One day you are going to have to face the fact that it isn’t just me you have to forgive to move on. You’re going to have to forgive yourself as well.
And just so you know, I have tried to put myself in your shoes. I’ve tried to make things right. It was you who decided if it couldn’t be your way, it would be no way. As always, you chose your suffering.
Only this time, you blame me because you are tired of blaming yourself.
If you ever want to do more than suffer and you want to try to fix this, you know where to find me. I can’t guarantee you’ll get the outcome you want exactly. But I never did guarantee that did I?
I was more honest than you gave me credit for.