We have been together for so long. You are the love of my life, my best friend, and you mean everything to me. You make me happy and my life is better and brighter because of you.
But we’re young. We’re in college and it’s a completely new experience. We don’t know what we want or what the future holds for either of us. It is a possibility for us to get married, but we also could not get married. But are we really meant for each other?
It is hard to decide the point in a relationship where if you want more if you should be happy with what you have. Is the perfect person really out there for you? Will they make you feel better than you do with me?
There are a lot of things you said you wish you could change about yourself. You wish there were things you could do for me that you think that I deserve. And you wish you care and love me the way I want you to. But this makes me think, if you can’t do that for me…am I really the one you need?
Maybe I am not the girl who is supposed to change you, to make you a different person, or to make you into the perfect partner for that perfect girl. What if I’m not the perfect girl?
I want to be the thing you need, but right now I feel like I’m not. Sometimes I feel like there’s something better than me out there and that is what you’re looking for. As hard as that is to accept, my fear keeps growing that it might be true. I want you to be happy, and that means finding what you need. The thing I want the most in the life that I have is to give you anything to make you happy. I want you to feel the way I feel with you every day. I want you to have everything the best. But the question for you is, is that me?