I have tried to keep going like I’ve been told. To smile through the tears. To protect my heart from harm. But with everyday it gets harder, He’s supposed to be here to tell me that school is more important than stupid boys. Every single time I get close to someone I get scared and mess things up. I run away because I no longer have anyone to tell me not to. I’m trying to protect these stupid boys that I call my family now but it’s hard. So hard. I don’t want them to get hurt. I know if they quit I will too. But now I’m beginning to think it’s me who is going to quit on them. I just need a sign. And some help.