It hurts to think about how I started feeling about you once you were around all the time. I’ve gotten really good at blocking it out over the years. There are no instances I specifically remember that can fully describe why I love you because you were mine for only a short period of time. Some things about you also changed over the years so I guess you could say that I’ve loved two different people, maybe more.
I love your confidence.
Your smile knocks me down everytime.
I think you’re funny as hell.
You’re so smart and you genuinely care about people.
You are a seeker, like me. When you know something is out there you don’t stop until you find it.
I love your voice and how you talk to me. I love how committed you are.
I love how over time, I could have anything I wanted from you.
I love how you so freely and guarded give me your complete undivided attention.
I love how you pick me everytime. I love how you protect the people I love.
I love how you lie. You’re pretty good at it.
I love how you want to live with me.
I love how you take me seriously.
I hate how much it hurts you.
I hate how you don’t trust me. Some things are supposed to be private, you know that.
I love how you express yourself.
I wish you knew how much I really do love you.
I wish you could find that confidence again.
I wish you weren’t trying so hard.
I wish you would tell me how you feel.
I wish you would give freely.
I love how you respect me.
I love how completely in love and obsessed you are with me.
I love making you wait.
I hope it’s enough. I wish I knew what love was.
I know that I miss you.
I know that I when I go to bed at night, I wish you were there.
I know that I want to wake up to you.
I know that I think about you a lot.
I love how calm I am when you’re around.
I love how you absolutely adore me.
I hate waiting for you.
I hate how it’s not enough, I wish you would fight harder.
I hate how part of me blames you.
I hate myself for hurting you.
I wish I wasn’t so confused.
I wish I knew more about you.
I pray that I can see you soon.