• I hate you.

    by  • February 16, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Resentment • 2 Comments

    I love you. I hate you.
    You make me feel hopeless. You lie to me.
    You tell me you will change, that you will do better. That you won’t surround me with hatred. That you will become a better mother to my sister. That you will try. That you will accept my decisions. That you will respect me. You never do.
    You’re going to make me choose, I know you will. I know you better than you know yourself mom.
    You don’t like him, you never have. But he treats me like a princess, he loves me unconditionally. You’re afraid of losing me to him because I’m your “little girl” your “baby bird” and I always have been. I always will be.
    But you’re pushing me away. You tell me my father is worthless. You tell me the one person I truly love will never provide for me (after your 4 failed marriages, what would you know?).
    I know you want to have my best interests at heart, but you’re only pushing me away. You’re making me choose between the two people I love most in this world and you don’t even realize it.
    What will you do when you push me too far?
    What will you do when I don’t choose you… when I can’t?
    I don’t want to lose you. I love you despite everything you do and say because I know you love me too. But you hurt me, you continue to do it every day, and no matter how much we talk, you never change.
    I hate it.

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    2 Responses to I hate you.

    1. T
      February 16, 2012 at 11:52 am

      It will get better <3


    2. B.
      February 18, 2012 at 8:17 pm

      Find you’re happiness. Take what lessons you can from her, and be a better person. Don’t be the parent she is to you’re kids. Love both parents, but that doesnt mean you have to like them.



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