• I hate knowing that I’ll love you forever

    by  • February 16, 2012 • Heartbreak • 2 Comments

    Hey you-
    How could you do this to me again? I fucking believed you. Just like every god damn time you told me you wanted us to work out and how you saw a future together. Why were you so selfish to say such fucking bullshit. It hurts. It’s hurt on and off for the past 3 years.

    It’s always been you. You always win me over. You always get the best of me. You always manipulate me into thinking we are meant to be.

    Reality check.

    You only like me around because I love you and you can see it in my eyes. I see you the way you wish you saw yourself.

    You mean the world to me and I hate it. I hate how much time I’ve wasted thinking about you. I hate how many times you’ve made me cry, when I don’t EVER cry. I hate knowing how easily you can break me. I want to hate you so much for these years of bullshit. But I never could because you will always have my heart. How can I still love you after all that we’ve been through? That is something I’ll never understand.

    All I ask from you is to let me fall out of love with you. Let me be. As much as I want you in my life, it kills me being around you because I know something about me holds you back. You know I deserve better so let me. I can let you go on my own only if you allow me to. Don’t pursue me again when you know in your heart that things weren’t meant to work out between us.

    That’s all I ask.

    I’ll love you forever.

    2 Responses to I hate knowing that I’ll love you forever

    1. S
      February 17, 2012 at 11:58 am

      Maybe they believed what they said. Did you listen? It takes two to make or break a relationship. In all those years, did you never do anything wrong???

      Just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to doesn’t mean they don’t love you the best way they know how.

    2. H
      February 17, 2012 at 12:41 pm

      S- I may not have written this letter, but something about your words hit me really hard. I realized that I rarely take other people’s feelings into account. I build up this fantasy relationship in my head and when they fail to meet my ridiculous expectations I am always disappointed. Looking back, I’m the one at fault. Maybe he was trying his hardest but I just set up the game so it’d be impossible for him to win. Thanks.

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