• God and Time

    by  • February 16, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Letting Go • 2 Comments

    Only God and time have helped me to go on with my life. There were moments when I wanted to turn my back on everything, to leave it all behind; I didn’t want to go on. I prayed to God to remove the love I felt for you from my heart, to destroy it, I didn’t want it. Love shouldn’t hurt but when people decide to play with others feelings hurt is what happens. I loved you. I was crazy out of my mind in love with you. I didn’t know how to quit you. Only God knows what I went through.

    God and time have given me the strength to do it. To move on. My consolation is knowing that you will never know how much you meant to me, how much you hurt me. You will never know that you brought me to my knees, literally but life goes on and I find that I am also moving on along with it. I am able to see and accept my future without you in it. I am actually happy about the future.

    I heard the other day that the day you stop loving someone that is the day they fall in love with you as a punishment from the gods. I honestly hope this is true. I only wish that you feel one day what I felt, that you go through exactly the same thing I went through and for as long as I did. That is my only prayer for you.

    2 Responses to God and Time

    1. Ash
      February 16, 2012 at 9:57 am

      yup…it is true…when that person stopped being in love with me…that’s when I fell in love with him. How ironic. Love kills and I’ll spend every waking moment trying to keep praying that God will give me peace about this…because frankly I fell in love. I’ll probably still be in love for the next 6 years…because I think that must have been how long he did.

      I don’t want to move on, but there is no other choice. You gave me the answer that I needed. God and time will heal all of this. I guess I’ll be down on my knees for a while. Makes me wonder if I really should say yes to this other guy yet, because I’m not really over this yet. Would it be fair? At the same time I need to move on and live my life. Maybe I should finally give love a chance….

    2. anyone
      February 16, 2012 at 11:10 pm


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