• Move on already

    by  • February 15, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Dating • 1 Comment

    I hate the fact that I’m such a creature of habit. I’ve kissed two boys in my 18 years of life, and those are the two boys my mind always travels back to.

    I have a problem with familiarity. Since I already know these boys so well, and they already know me so well, it is very hard for me to move on. I know what to expect, it’s simple, easy.

    I didn’t hook up with them in the same time frame or anything, I’m not that girl. And I never did more than make out with them. It kind of scares me, what going to happen when I lose my virginity? Will I become completely and totally obsessed with the guy? This is gonna sound sad but it makes me wanna stay a virgin forever.

    Both guys tried to do more with me. One more so than the other, he was kind of an ass about it. But I wasn’t ready any of the times, and I have no problem with the word “no”. My body, my rules.

    I don’t know, I guess I just want to move on. I don’t think either of these guys are the one. I know there’s someone better out there. But what if I’m too scared to find him? Or when I do find him, what if I’m too scared to be myself? Future freaks me out, I guess I’ll add that to my list.

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    One Response to Move on already

    1. Kaitlin
      February 15, 2012 at 2:43 pm

      what the hell?! It’s like we’re the same person. I’m stuck on the most recent of the 2 guys I’ve ever dated… And I know he’s wrong for me. I know he doesn’t care, but lemme tell you girl, it sucks being obsessed with a guy who you know is damn sucky.
      Guess What? I’m proud you’re a virgin. Losing your v-card isn’t a race. Anyone who says it is, please tell me what the prize is? Herpes? But I digress, I think the reason it seems so scary is perhaps you haven’t been in the kind of love that makes you feel comfortable enough to completely share everything you have with another person, and that’s okay. Once you you have, it might not be all that scary at all. Till, then, don’t sweat it; self-respect is a valuable thing to hold on to, darling.



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