Sometimes I wonder if you write silly letters like this to me… you know, letters that you know i’ll never read but you wish I could, but you just can’t get yourself to tell me the truth. Because let me tell you I probably write you a letter once a week. I wish I could actually tell you all of my feelings towards you but I can’t…
Here’s the thing. I love you. I’m not in love with you, nor do I want to be in love with you. We had our time and that has past. But you were my first love and something about that will always stick with me, so yes, I will love you forever.
But two years ago things went down pretty badly for us. We didn’t talk for over half a year and you acted like you hated me. I still don’t know why things took such a drastic turn and I wish I could know but I guess I never will. A lot of times it feels like you just completely neglect that i even existed, that we ever had a relationship. That hurts. You told me that you loved me and we were together for a long time, and to see you pretend like it never happened is confusing and hurtful. I wish you wouldn’t be so immature when it came to this so we can actually talk out our feelings.
Love, your first ever serious girlfriend/first love/old friend/wanting answers