I won’t tell anyone that last night I stayed up most the night crying. It’s okay. When you are rejected not by just one person but two you put a smile on your face and just keep trying. You move on. You pick yourself up off the floor and keep moving towards goals, people who still care, and people that need you everywhere…the homeless…babies who are dying…families that are broken. I don’t have to shut myself out to love or loving other people. Funny, I have to keep remind myself this. Every time.
Two big blows this year. It took every ounce of strength last night just to cross the room without feeling the weight of it all on my shoulders. I know somehow it’s all going to get better. By taking one baby step at a time I will continue trying my hardest to live life to the fullest and be thankful for all the blessings that there are…the people that are there.
I don’t know if it was a triangle or four-path-way that somehow I ended up in the middle of here. I don’t want to cause anyone any pain. If that were the case then I would say, don’t worry. I’ll be fine. Don’t worry about hurting me. I’ll be okay. I’ll keep smiling and I will get by somehow.
Who I’m worried about now is you.