I wish sometimes I wouldn’t be me. I wish that I would just stop being so impulsive, thinking before talking and thinking before acting. I wish that I could stop being so stupid and stop the bull shit. Each time I feel this way I ruin the feelings of someone else. I can’t believe guys actually like me. I feel so stupid for being this way. Maybe I like the drama, maybe I like being a retard, maybe I just do not like to be so selfish and ruin perfectly good friendships because I can’t listen to my intuition. Talking is my weakest point. I wish that I would not talk sometimes and just listen. I wish that I could be silent for a while, but I can’t. I have problems with being too honest. Why am I so blunt?!?!?! Can’t I just be submissive….a little at least. I have to give all the information to everyone. I can’t just sit back and chill…….I want to be more like some other people. I want to be able to just keep my fat trap shut. I need therapy.