But you probably won’t take me back. Bottom line is I know for sure I would not be happy with anyone else. Thinking about it all of today. I felt miserable. I will be miserable.
Living life without you would be like a black hole. I probably missed out on my chance… for the 4th time…
You’ve given up… haven’t you? Please tell me, because I really have made my decision to follow my J. I really have. Just tell me what to do and where to go and how far you want me to follow, because I will. Tell me what we should do now.
If it’s now that you want then let it be now. The truth is that I could never be happy with anyone else. I know that. Even as I wrote that last letter I knew that in my heart I was giving up my future. It looked like one black hole with no light.
You are not just some fantasy or wishy washy lovey dovey dream. We have been friends for years. Love came softly and I realized that I’m in love with you. Totally and completely. But now that you’ve probably gone and left it’s probably too late.
I screw up so many times with you. It’s not even funny. What I wouldn’t give for you to come back to me. Valentines Day is coming up and there is no one else that I would rather spend it with. For real.
Let’s give it another try?
I’m giving you my heart. I’m giving you my life if you want it, and our future together. I want to build a future with you.
Here is my heart. You can hand it back if you don’t want it.
I love you, J.
I really love you.