I can’t handle things anymore. I’m just so sad. I want all the sad and the hopelessness to go away. And I’m such a damn baby because I’m just sitting here. Crying. Finding myself alone again, even after I’ve told him how alone I feel. And he just thinks I’m bat shit insane. He’s been my best friend for 6 years. And we’ve been together for most of that. But he’s got his old best friend back. And I’m in the dust. And I hate this new best friend. He brings out the worst in my sweetheart. I just want him back. And it’s killing me. If I make him choose, he’ll be gone. I know it.
And all of this college shit. If I never changed my major I would be graduated next quarter. But I HAD to change it (and nobody is happy with my fantastic want to be a cop, but fuck it), and I’m so overwhelmed.
I fucking hate this. It just needs to stop.