• In a bad place

    by  • February 9, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Depression • 0 Comments

    Right now, my mental state is terrible.
    I am so full of hate for people and things and just everything around me and its beyond unpleasant. I’m mean and paranoid and lonely.
    But the worst part is how I think about myself. I am so full of self loathing right now and its scary to me. I don’t know how to properly explain it and I’m so scared to tell anyone. I kind of think I want to die. Not kill myself, but I wish it could just happen. And thats terrifying. But I could never talk to my family. My “friends” could care less about me these days.
    And you. I don’t know how I could ever tell you without you blaming yourself and getting upset, and that would be worse than anything.
    So I suppose I will just write anonymous letters about it on the internet and hope that I feel better.

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