• One of those days..

    by  • February 7, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Miss You • 1 Comment

    So, it’s been 38 days since we last spoke. I mean we’ve done longer, but this is killing me. Over the past 38 days I have not cried once for you. I won’t let myself. This is never how I planned things to turn out. You are my best friend, what am I supposed to do without you? I think about you every single day. And every single day I have to fight the urge to text or call you. It’s not that I haven’t tried moving on because believe me I have, rather I just can’t. I can’t make myself no matter how hard I try. It’s like my heart has put its feet down and will not budge. 38 days and you haven’t reached out to me once, not once. Is it just that you don’t care? Are you done? Is it really over for you? You’re just going to stand there and do nothing? What happened to all those promises of never letting me and us go? Don’t you see that what we had was real? I mean, I may not know many things, but one thing I do know is that you are my one person. It’s been you since I was 15 and 5 years later it’s still you. No one can ever come close to what we had together. Every time I imagine my future it’s with you. I guess I’m just rambling now.. Some days it’s just so easy for me to give up the fight of keeping you out of my mind and heart. Today is one of those easy days. I just want you to know that I miss you every second of every day. I love you with every atom in my body. You are the one I want forever and always. Just know that even though it will probably never be you in reality, it will always be you in my heart. I love you. Love, Marie

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    One Response to One of those days..

    1. Jennifer
      February 8, 2012 at 12:15 pm

      I read this and realized we are in almost the same exact situation. And I suppose this is me reaching out to try and make someone feel better, because if I can do that for you maybe someone can for me. My boyfriend and I are taking a “break” and we have been dating for five years almost on the dot, and we also started around when I was fifteen. But I hope that I can be stronger because of all of this. And maybe for you and maybe for me too it wont be a forever goodbye.
      I hope you find peace. I hope I do too.



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