• no matter what

    by  • February 7, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Lost Love • 1 Comment

    No matter what, I will always love you. Unlike most people who talk about ex’s, you didn’t cheat on me or abuse me in any way; in fact you are and were the closest thing to perfect I believe a person can be.

    We broke up because something happened, I still don’t fully understand what it was or how it came about, but it just did.

    I’ve hurt you, and there is nothing I can do to take that back. But if I could take your pain away and call it my own I would for you, because I’ve gone through pain for you before and it was more than worth being able to have you hold me in my arms while we enjoy the simple things.

    I am so grateful for the experiences we got to share together and the love that we had for one another.

    I have done some growing up, a lot of it because of you and because of us. I know now that good people really do make stupid mistakes, and I want you to know that I truly forgive you. I get it, and it doesn’t mean anything to me now.

    It doesn’t matter if no one understands this letter, because you would. I know you will never read it, but if you happen to I hope you know that this is coming from me, to you.

    I miss you incredibly, and I need you now more than ever but am too afraid I will lose you so I keep my distance and try not to think about how perfect it would be to plan my future with you while we’re together in the present and moving on from the past.

    I really will never forget you, I hope you know that. You were my first true love and that never dies; I can honestly and proudly say that I’ve been blessed with the time we did share together.

    If there’s ever a time when we are able to overcome everything that has happened and be together again, I will finally feel whole again.

    But if we don’t, I will never forget and no matter what, I will always love you.

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    One Response to no matter what

    1. Enjay
      February 8, 2012 at 4:49 pm

      Hauntingly beautiful; I failed to stop the lone tear from breaking out of the corner of my eye. So very few letters hit this close to the heart.

      I read and re-read every word, and each time the words burrowed beneath my skin, rushed past my heart in a flaming frenzy and sunk into my mind to the memory compartment, flashing buried images before my eyes once again; images I’ve tried to forget. This could easily be her letter to me, from the opening statement to the final period. Indeed, words cannot express how much I so desire it to be, that it is HER pen that wrote them, and that I were on her mind with each keystroke.

      But reality is a cruel teacher and I’m certain you are not her. In any case, I feel your pain and admire your Love. I sincerely wish you the best in Love and in life.

      In Christ,



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