I just ate an entire large pizza. I just threw up. I feel fat and disgusting and weak and guilty and incredibly sad and scared. I’m scared I’ll never lose weight, I’m scared I’ll forever have no willpower. I know throwing up was bad. This is the first time I’ve ever really tried. I’m also scared because I feel like a failure because I couldn’t even throw up properly, barely anything came out.
I’m 5’6″ and almost 150 pounds. A year ago I was 124. A few months ago I was at 135.
If I had one wish right now, I’d wish to be skinny.
Note to self — Stop being stupid. Never eat a whole large pizza again.
P.S. I forgive you as long as you really don’t do it again.