I over think things all the time, and i’m getting sick of it!
I love you with all my heart and everytime i think you have something going on i get all freaked out and it drives me NUTS! Because at the end you act all diva saying nothing is going on when i know that the total opposite is going on! And when that happens, i start asking questions, over think the situation and get into a discussion that i wish that i had never spoken about it.
I’m scared of losing you everytime we fight or get into a discussion, and you on the other hand couldnt give a shit because you know FOR SURE that I’ll be there no matter what, no matter how many times you make me sad and fight me, I’ll be there; it doesnt matter if it isnt my fault, I’ll go running behind you saying I’m sorry when I didnt do anything in the first place and try to make everything better again. But for once i wish you could feel some fear and treat me the way i deserve or at least think that you could loose me anytime and start acting like a good and nice boyfriend.
How come i’m the one that’s afraid of losing you? How come you don’t feel that way? I know you think I will always be there, but, I really wish I could start feeling the total opposite way and be FEARLESS. Feel that I am beautiful and could get anyone I wanted. But the true problem is that, I want noone else but YOU… No matter what.
I just don’t want to lose myself again for love.