• You are changing my mind

    by  • February 6, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 0 Comments

    I have a boyfriend. We’ve been together for four years. I’m in love with him. But I’m starting to think that that love isn’t what I want anymore. Since you’ve come into my life, I’ve realized things about myself that I’d forgotten. Like how I want to pursue a psychology degree. Or how I want to be pushed past my limits on occasion. How I want to be free to question the things I have questions about and not have to worry about solidifying my life right now. There are so many things I want to do and mistakes I want to make. But I can’t do them from where I am right now. I’m not ready to marry him. But how could I give him up? Then again, how do I give you up? I know that if I take the convenient way out, and leave you behind, you will be in my dreams the rest of my life. I’ve never met someone like you before. You bring out the person that I’ve always wished I could express to people. As cheesy as this sounds, I feel like you’re teaching me how to fly. My boyfriend loves the person that I am. But he doesn’t encourage me and question me like you do. I’m at a real tough part of my life right now. I’m young. About to graduate college in fact. I can see myself being incredibly happy with you but the risk makes me dizzy. Can you see how much I’d be giving up? I’ve invested four years of love into one person. I’ve become a part of his family and he a part of mine. I’ve come to terms with the fact that, in one way or another, my heart will be broken at the end of all this. I just need to figure out if the risk is worth it.

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