Because of you, I have a degree from one of the best schools in California, I live in one of the most beautiful places in the world, and I have a job that I absolutely love. No matter how much I work, how little I make, or how exhausted I am at 6pm, I love every single day of it. You are the reason that all of this was possible for me. So, I feel selfish when I say that I can’t wait to get the hell out of here.
Growing up with amazing opportunities, safety, and security has been such a blessing. But with the education and the experiences that I’ve had in college, I can’t help but want to know more. Our family has lived and stayed in the same town since our grandparents were young. No one has ever thought to venture any further than the backyard.
I know that you don’t want me to go, but I want you to think about something. Ry is 12 years old and is fighting the hugest battle of his life. His opportunities dwindle everyday that he goes in for chemo. He may never get to accomplish the goals that he has for himself, and that is heartbreaking. Well, what I want for myself is to unlock the gate to our backyard and see what the rest of the world has to offer. I’m not saying that I will leave forever and never come back. I’m saying that I know that there are incredible things out there, and I want to see them. It may sound selfish to you right now. But tell me, how fair would it be to your 12 year old nephew if we don’t do everything that we possibly can to achieve our goals?
So, when I am ready to go, please don’t cry, please don’t be worried, and please don’t tell me that it is selfish for me to do this. Because considering the opportunity that I’ve been given, an opportunity that many may never have, I think that it would be selfish for me not to.
Thank you for everything. You know that I couldn’t do any of it without you. I love you Mom and Dad.