You are coming home!! I can hardly believe it! I thought you would be out there this whole year or had moved permanently, but you are really coming home! I don’t care if I’m four hours from you. Just having you a little bit closer just makes my whole year seem that much brighter. I know it’s going to sound crazy, but I really miss you. I’m almost in tears just writing this. The game is over. You are coming home. If this is real… all of this please tell me, because it just seems too good to be true.
There are so many things that I want to say to you, but I don’t know how and I don’t know when. I just know that I’m overjoyed! But I’m afraid… I’m afraid you’ll break that joy and end up crushing it. I honestly don’t think I could handle another crush… another blow.
You have no idea how pathetic I am. How I would keep my phone next to me at night… that sometimes your messages were the only thing that got me through, especially when I couldn’t stop crying. You made me smile. You made me laugh. You made me remember that I was someone… that I could be someone. In your own silent way, you seemed to always know when I needed a booster. How do I tell you how much it means to me that you’ve always been there?
Guess you’ll never know since you live uptown and I live… well downtown. Perhaps one day… maybe one day I’ll get that chance to tell you. But for now just having you closer makes me feel better… like everything is going to be okay.