Click here for a letter.Today I realized just how alone I am, I have no one to share any of my life with. I have been struggling with finding my identity and establishing friends and now that I have created my persona and found people that care about me I find I can’t share anything important. I listen and help all that I can, I try to be the kindest person possible but in doing that a great divide has opened between me and the people I care about. It seems that kindness only ever flows in one direction, out, and no love is ever returned. I should be used to this, I have never been close to anyone, I have always been the rock, the great stone pillar that holds in place all those touching. Today I have been in pain because my very soul has a great void that can seemingly never be filled. Today I am alone. Tomorrow I will be alone. Forever I will be alone.
Perhaps now is the time to take a risk. you can go to those people and ask them to listen and share your pain. It is a scary step, but I have been there before. If they do not know anything is wrong, they don’t know you need them. They may brush you off, or they may reach out to you. Reciprocate the openness they give you. I hope you are pleasantly surprised.
Very familiar feeling. There is one, only one that can fill this void..