First let me say this is not about us not working. Out of our dead relationship came a friendship that I cherish very dearly. We were not meant for forever you and I. Our hearts belonged to others but being together helped us realize where we should be. For this I am thankful.
Unfortunately, there is a part of me that struggles. Inside I am always warring with myself . With the anger I feel towards you. Sometimes when we are around each other I feel the urge to scream at you. Just scream at the top of my lungs at you until I can’t breathe. Just scream as loud as I can “HOW DARE YOU NOT CARE THAT MY SON IS GONE….THAT OUR SON IS GONE.”
…I struggle daily to live with this and to be a better friend than I am a person at times.
I got through today, and tomorrow is another fight. But I will make it through it.
I’m sorry sunshine for all the things I will never say to you.