• I don’t believe it

    by  • February 1, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Cheating • 2 Comments

    I’m sorry. But I love you. This will not change, because you saved my life and now it is yours. I was dying when you found me, screaming silently for someone to help and also to be just left alone.. I do not blame you, for over these years, losing interest… I can actually understand. I know i’m not very interesting or funny or remotely good enough to want to stay in a relationship with, which is why i thank you for still trying to be here. But, i don’t believe it… i don’t believe it anymore when you say ”I love you” I used to at one point but, after… after all the bad things that happened, i know you changed, and i changed. I stopped trusting you. I can’t trust you. But i still love you. I love you more than any other person on this Earth. Which makes me so sad and sick.. I hate that i love you.. i shouldn’t. Because even though you saved me, you’ve killed me too. You’ve destroyed the only part that was left to trust. Now i cannot trust. And i do not believe when you say… anything. I don’t believe it.. I can’t believe that you love me.

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    2 Responses to I don’t believe it

    1. I know
      February 1, 2012 at 1:52 pm

      God do I know just exactly how you feel! Deeply.
      When words are no longer enough and nothing but
      action would show and see the truth. Depth of
      love infinite yet impossible to convey because
      you’re stripped of the choice to do so. Of fear,
      of fear and doubt by the other. If you but so
      much, as have the ability to ask the person to
      meet with you – don’t hesitate and do it.
      Eye to eye and no more doubts, you would just know,
      either way. Knowing will let you find your way to
      either let go and move on (no matter how hard) or
      will show you that there really is nothing to mend
      because it was never gone. Choices. What’s important
      and what is not, to you.
      Best wishes and may you find the peace that I am still
      seeking.




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    2. ANEWDAY
      February 1, 2012 at 5:00 pm

      Been there and couldn’t agree more with everything “I know” said up above.




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