• beautiful*disaster

    by  • February 1, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Addiction • 1 Comment

    binge, purge, restrict, fast, repeat. count calories. work out. run. run. run. repeat. I wouldn’t wish this obsession on my worst enemy.I hate you… but I love you sooo much at the same time. You control me but make me think I have control over you. you’re my stress relief and cause. this is my world. When my world should be my daughter, my friends, my family. My head is consumed with calories and fat and exercise and fooood. non stop. it never ends. ever. I will live with this demon forever. you haunt me, you lurk inside of me. ripping me to pieces, tearing me apart. please stop…. but if you go, will i miss you? I am petrified this “distorted” thinking is hereditary. If she has this…. I will die… hate myself forever. I need help. help me…. please

    One Response to beautiful*disaster

    1. d
      February 2, 2012 at 1:55 am

      i have never read what was exactly in my mind. i could not of expressed this any better myself. these are my own thoughts exactly. and i mean exactly.

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