I’m a girl in college! A freshman to be exact. Everyday I wake up and put on real clothes not sweats, I do well in my classes, and I have fun on the weekends. I’m pretty much the girl next door that everyone on campus knows and thinks is a total sweetheart. Everyone always says how I seem to know everyone in our freshman class. I’m surrounded by loving friends wherever I go.
I have everything I could ever need. But somehow, I can’t get a boyfriend.
So I sit and wonder:
*I still know how to have fun date nights/hookups when I’m in a relationship, but is it because I don’t sleep around when I’m single?
*I’m waiting for sex until I’ve found the right guy, but is it because I’m currently a virgin?
*I still know how to have tons of fun sober, but is it because I don’t drink?
*I’ve always been told how pretty I am, but is it because I’m not pretty enough?
*I have a super challenging schedule which is why I couldn’t rush, so is it because I’m not a part of greek life here on campus?
It seems like you guys complain about a few things like being friend zoned (which I don’t do!), being played by a girl who just wants to “keep her options open”, or how girls are surrounded by drama (I’ve never had any drama). A lot of guys have closed off their hearts because of one girl or what they think girls do which is very unfortunate because not all girls are out here to destroy.
I am pretty much the chillest girl one could find that loves football, does NOT spend all of your money up, plays call of duty occasionally, the girl that your mom would LOVE, and the girl that will not play with your heart. So why can’t I find a boyfriend? I don’t know.
I just want to love and be loved. Call me babe. Introduce me to your family. Open up your heart to me. Cuddle with me in bed. Play with my hair. Kiss me. Be there for me. Hold my hand when I get scared.
Until then, I’ll lay in bed by myself and wonder why I can’t find love. I’ll think about all the things that could possibly be wrong with me while others just tell me to be patient. Being patient sucks! No matter how many guys I meet, I end up becoming one of the guys simply because I am so laid back.
Let me repeat: I just want to love and be loved. Not treated as one of the guys.
So to all of you college boys out there:
Why don’t you notice me? Can we explore the possibilities of me not being one of the guys? I just want to find whichever one of you that is for me and make you feel like the man I know you can be!
Maybe I’m just out here chasing a dream, but I know there’s a college boy out there for me.