Right so it all started when I was 17…
You came into my life and I felt so many things that I had never felt before or since.
We’ve been apart nearly as long as we were together by now and I still think of you every single day.
I know you have moved on, and I have tried to! Trust me!! I have been kissing frogs left right and centre!
I know it wasn’t right, and that I was right to walk away. But every day I wish we were back in a single bed in a damp room and you curled your hand around my fist while I was sleeping. and held me, and listened to my dreams and assured me I could do anything.
You were my greatest advocate, my biggest fan. You respected and admired me so much, took every word I said as gospel. I try every day to banish the thoughts of you but I can’t seem to shake the ghost off.
When it was hard it was horrible, but mainly because I felt unworthy inside and couldn’t accept your love. I have done the same with every guy since don’t worry! Cast them aside before my little frozen heart can feel anything serious, and run a mile if it does!
That is because I can’t bear the thoughts that I might love again, and override the memory of you.
I see you now and you are like a stranger. The connection is long gone, and I am happy for you and her….
I look into your eyes and wonder do you remember it? What we had? Was it real? Or am I just imagining?
Nobody else will ever know what we once shared my love. But I hope to feel the same intensity with mr. new and perfect any day now!! 🙂