• I’m sorry.

    by  • January 31, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Breaking Up • 0 Comments

    Dear Boy,

    You’ll never understand how much I love you, and how you’ll always hold a place in my heart forever. This is corny, I don’t care. You’ve been there for me ever since you entered my life, but things are different now. How are we supposed to stay together when everything’s falling apart? Our relationship we once help strong is now crumbling a little more each day, I can see it and feel it all the same. Every negative thing said is now overriding every positive. I’m sorry I’m not all that you want me to be. I’m sorry that I care about everyone. It’s who I am. I don’t have any common sense as you’ve made perfectly clear, but I do have a big heart, something that’s hard to find nowadays. I forgive too much, and that bothers you. I try to find the good in others, and it makes you sick to the stomach. As for what I believe in, that will never change dear. We both know that you are far more intelligent than I will ever be, but I have something else to offer. What good is knowledge if you cannot love? What good is life if you have no god to believe in? To you I live in some fairytale world just because I think that God loves me and has a purpose for my life. No, God himself isn’t going to present himself before me or send a lightning bolt down bringing everything I will ever need, no. That’s not how I think. God however will give me the will and strength to get out of bed each morning and go forward and do anything with my life. Learning from the teachings of Jesus will just help me to become a better person and guide my life. I feel like I’m important, like I’m a part of the God of the Universe’s master plan, something bigger than this world, and beyond comprehension. It’s impossible for me to fathom how someone can go their whole live with no hope or faith. If you win in the end , and we figure out that God and the Bible are just a lie, then I will have the eternal satisfaction of knowing that I lived a purposeful live and served others. I will have experienced real love. I have friends, but not anymore that you brought me away from them. I need them back, and need to move on with my life before it’s too late and ruin both of our lives. I need things back to the way they were. It’s time for me to let go and move on, which is a part of life, my friend. It’s been good. I wish you well.

    Love Always,
    Me.

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