T,

I’m writing this anonymously and posting it publicly so maybe you come across it. Maybe, but probably not.

I know I could never tell you this directly because, well, you want no contact with me. I understand why, in fact I understand a lot more than that now. I know you cared, and I know I was a handful.
I’m more than sorry for everything I have said and done. Most importantly, what I didn’t do. That’s what this whole letter is about.. Letting go. I held on to you when I should have let go. The existence of impermanence was something I failed to understand.

I love you, not the obsessed kind of way that I was back then. I love you because of what we went through and how we grew from it. Until recently, I didn’t realize all the good things that came out of our relationship and breakup.

You haven’t been on my mind lately.. you and I both know thats a good thing. Im so proud of myself, and Im proud of you. You did the right thing sooner than I, you let go. I have much respect for you T. I hope you have a wonderful life. Thank you for letting me live mine.

-C

P.S. Happy belated birthday