N.ever E.ver L.ose L.ove

I’m not all too sure if you’re ever going to read this but someone will. First off I have to tell you, you’re amazing beyond imagination. It’s been some time since I’ve seen you, but your face is still burned into my dreams. I hate that I messed up like I did and realize you will probably never feel the same as you used too. But I can’t let go. I can’t help but realize you’re the only girl to see me break down and show my true self. You’re the only girl who I could get mad at and then make me forget why I was mad with only a kiss. You’re the only girl that can melt me with a pouty face. You happen to be the only girl I enjoyed babysitting with. You have the most beautiful brown eyes I have ever seen. Your blanket is cute and I never hated it. I could go on for days and wish you would have given me another chance. But you won’t. I’m sorry I sent you flowers on sweetest day. I’m sorry it took so long for me to change. I’m sorry I text you when I’m drunk and can’t hold back. I’m sorry I called you a million times that night you butt dialed me. I’m sorry for the person I became. I’m sorry I’ll never forget you. Is it weird I still wonder if we have a future? If it is I’m sorry for that too. I also wonder if I ever cross your mind. The answer is probably no, but I still have hope. For now I’ll keep wishing for that chance encounter and fill the empty spot you should be in. Your life is probably better without me in it anyway Nell.