Dear Sarah,

I don’t think I care anymore.

You know, I thought our friendship was amazing. I really did. I cared about you. I put my ass on the line for you and I did things for you I would have never done for anyone else.

I thought we were friends, Sarah. I thought what we had was an amazing relationship. I supported you and Jayda. It’s not my fault she didn’t like me. It’s not my fault you couldn’t see the reason why you had to talk to her about her feelings towards me.

She was a bitch to me every time I talked to her. I tried telling her how I felt and I tried be nice and she would not listen. All you had to do was simply ASK HER TO STOP BEING SO RUDE TO ME. SHE WOULD LISTEN TO YOU BECAUSE YOU’RE HER FUCKING GIRLFRIEND AND WHAT’S BETTER THAN COMPROMISE, RIGHT?

But I guess that was too much, now wasn’t it? You decided you were going to be a fucking five year old and tell ME to fuck off.

You know what? I should’ve just said fuck you from the beginning. I knew I was going to lose you the second Jayda started being a bitch towards me all the time. She was jealous, we both knew that, and you ignored it because you loved her and you would rather lose me than her.

You are a god damn fool for letting her step all over us. All over you. Now, it’s just me you’re willing to lose but what if she comes between family? SHE was the jealous one. SHE put you in the middle of this and gave us both a hard time the entire time. I TOLD YOU ALL OF THIS AND YOU KNEW IT THE WHOLE TIME. After everything we’ve been through, I can’t believe you would do that.

And now, when I try to talk to you for once, what do you do? You fucking ignore me and pretend I don’t exist. And when David starts being nice to me and trying to cheer me up for your stupidity and the complete asshole you’ve been; when he tried to pick up the pieces of my heart you threw on the ground, you fucking shut him out too.

Two and a half FUCKING YEARS thrown away because he was NICE TO ME.

You are a spoiled fucking brat. You have everything from amazing parents who talk to you and trust you, to private schools and fucking swimming pools at your kindergarten school. You have too much of what you don’t need to realize what you really need is already gone or leaving or something you threw away.

You always used to brag about everything you ever had. You went to conventions and fucking concerts and everything. And I would always listen because I knew for a fucking sour puss that you are, those moments were when you were happy.

I don’t even know what I’m trying to say with this letter right now. I tried being sad and mournful for our friendship that’s so dead and will probably never come back.

But you know what? Fuck it. I’m through with you. If you come back, you better have a good fucking apology or something to pull out your ass, because I had an anxiety attack over this BULL SHIT.

I hope you’re happy with that stupid ass girlfriend of yours.

God damn, Sarah. I really did care about you but you fucking threw my feelings away. Out the fucking window.

I wanted to talk this out. I tried being nice the whole time. But you and your biased ass just wouldn’t have that, would you? You fucking bawwlocked me when I told you what you knew was the truth and now you refuse to talk even still because you’re a stubborn fucking bitch.

I realize that I should never have put myself through so much pain because you’re just not worth it. I thought you were, but you’re not. Not after the way you showed me how much you cared.

Well I’ll show you how much my shit stinks. Try me.

You’re an asshole. I wish I’d never even tried to work this out with her and you and David and all those people involved. It was a waste of fucking time.

Have a nice fucking life.