My thoughts are all scrambled and I can’t make sense of anything.
I haven’t cried about you in some time now.
You’ve got me doing it again. But this time, it’s not because you hurt my feelings or upset me in a negative way.
This time, I’m crying over you because you’ve asked me to be with you again. I can’t tell if you’re serious. You were so adamant you didn’t want me anymore. You told me to fuck off and that you didn’t want me in your life.
Now you come back saying you miss me and love me and want to marry me.
God, I want to be with you so fucking bad, but I can’t let myself give in just yet. I need to know the extent of your seriousness. I need to know the same old shit won’t happen again.
But, more than anything, I’m happy you’re talking to me again. I just don’t want to take that leap until I know you’ll catch me.